It's been forever.

Nothing in my life is new.
I have failed to get on daily and blog like I probably should. My leg is finally getting better, and the marching band show this year is really neat.
We are marching:
E.T.

Jurassic Park

Jaws

Superman


That's probably about it for now. Tomorrow is exciting for Thomas and I. Tomorrow will be our Year and a half anniversary. I'm pretty excited, and I'm going to see him on Thursday.[:


Tomorrow before I go back home, Shea and I are going to take senior pictures. I'm not real sure where all we're going to go, but I'm pretty excited and I want something different.
That pretty much concludes my blog.

-Jessca<3

rude, rude, rude, rude, rude DRAMA.

Okay, so I'm so tired of people thinking that they can say and do whatever they want to do. People that act like little three year olds and get away with it, well I'm not going to be a push over for anyone anymore, because I'm better than that. And I'm not going to put up with stupid people that think that they can do whatever they want. Just to let ya' know, I don't care what ya' say(:

On to my next subject. I don't really have a lot of room to talk about anyone looking fat, but it's pretty ridiculous when someone wears clothes that makes them look bigger than they actually are. I try my hardest to stay away from that, but I mean it's ridiculous, if you feel uncomfortable, then people will think and say stuff about you.

I'm going spring shopping pretty soon, I think that I'm just going to BG with Natalie, I'm not sure but I'm mainly going to buy from forever 21, pacsun, hottopic, american eagle, and hollister.
Wellp, that's it for now.
XOXO♥Jessca

Tuesday...

Today was all that bad, although I was tired like all day.
Yesterday was Thomas' birthday, and I went to his house and spent the day, that's
why I didn't blog about it.
I looked at old pictures of him as a baby(: and Saturday at his party, I have a
surprise that I'm working really hard on, but I'm not going to reveal because knowing
him, he'll read my blog for once. Ha, and it'd be the first time.
So, my goal for the month is to lose 5-10 pounds, I feel uncomfortable in my own skin, and I absolutely hate it. I feel to big for all of my friends, and I can't hardly stand it anymore, but I don't think I'm ginormous, I'm just not as small as I'd like to be.

1.)I have to study for a chemistry quiz
2.)laundry
3.)clean my room
4.)make a list of stuff for thomas' ________ ____(:
Kay, so other than all of that fun stuff, my phone is the biggest piece of crap EVER. It started out when I made a call you couldn't hear the other person talking but if you put it on speaker, then called them back it would work normally. Now, it has to be on speaker every time, which makes it difficult to talk in front of other people.
So, I think that I'm getting a new phone soon(:
That's all for now, although you should try to recruit people to follow me(:
XOXO♥Jessca

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TKD

Yeah, it probably is corny, or gay...But I love Thomas, with all of my heart. I always thought that I was in love before, but I've never felt anything like this before...ever. And it is pretty weird. I can't even stand the thought of being without him, it just doesn't seem right. It's hard for me to stop staring at him, because he's absolutely amazing, and he's so gorgeous.
When we're at school he's quiet, and awkward around everybody. But when we're outside of school like at home, or in public when it's just us, he talks so much about everything. Things that doesn't even seem like him. I love him, with all of my heart.

4♥6♥09♥

Okay, So Thursday at school Homecoming candidates were nominated. And, once again, I was a nominee, I accepted, of course. My only problem with running again is the anxiety, and the possible embarrassment of being on the court in front of tons of people. Last year I got first runner up, this year I'm not real sure If I'll receive any place, which for me is just fine. I get to dress up, so that's okay.

So, next weekend I'm going with Laura and Savannah to shop for dresses. The original plan was to look for prom dresses, but I think it's pretty obvious about what I'll be looking for. I'm so nervous about homecoming, like the night of. I'm nervous about going to shopping with his mom and sister. I'm still really nervous around them, and afraid to be myself. Especially around his dad, I joke around with him a lot to hide that I'm really nervous. I've never had anything like them, and it's a good thing... But enough about that.
I want a flowy dress, something light blue, or green. Maybe a bubble dress because they're cute. IDK how to do my hair because it's pretty short, any ideas?

best friend.

I used to have a really good best friend. We were together everyday, all day. But now she decided to do to me what she's always done, she found new ones...again.

And me? I'm left in the cold without a "best friend". My closest person to being a best friend is Thomas, and he's my boy friend.

I want a best friend, like her...but I don't have one.

And somehow in all this friend drama, I can still find a light. Because I'd rather be in love than to be betrayed by another "best friend"

Picture of the Day♥

i love youu

I've seen better days.

I don't know what's wrong today. It snowed, there wasn't any school...

All day today I just stayed in my bed room on the computer, and I don't know why I've been depressed for the past two days.

Everything with Thomas and his family is fine, all my drama at school is FINALLY cleared up, I don't have anything to be depressed about. But I still don't feel happy. Maybe it's just the fact that I've been bored all day.

Lately I have been depressed about the way that my dad is turning out. I fear that he might end up like my papaw JB one day, and I don't really know how to talk to him about it. He doesn't go to church, and he sits and drinks all day. I don't want all of this to happen to my dad. I thought about talking to my grandma about it, but I don't want him mad at me.. I don't know what to do, and I fear I'm running out of options for him.

Snow...

Today it snowed in Horse Cave...it was surprising.

I didn't play in the snow today, in fact all I did was go out and get a bowl full of snow for snow cream that I didn't even like. I thought I'd give it a try. All day I sat in my room playing guitar hero or call of duty and I couldn't get the thoughts of my childhood out of my mind.
I can remember when it would snow Jordan and I would always go out and have a snow ball fight, every time. Or we'd sled. I can't remember the last time that I actually had fun in the snow.
I miss alot of things about my childhood. I know that I'm not that old, and I know that Jordan grew up...but i miss him from time to time..


On a brighter note, here's the picture of the day;